Addiction

When an addict tells you that you are their addiction,

Do not say thank you.

It is not a compliment.

What she means to say is,

That, much like an overused rubber band,

When your arms wrap around hers,

Parts of her body, the bad parts,

They go numb.

The blood rushes through her veins,

Her heart pumps faster, and suddenly,

It’s like she can feel NOTHING,

And she feels EVERYTHING all at once.

When she says you are her addiction,

She means that every time your fingers trace her skin,

It reminds her of how hers trace a needle

And how she can’t wait to have both inside her.

When she says you’re her addiction,

She means that every time she feels you

Every brief thrust inside her is euphoric

Her eyes widen, her heart races,

Her mouth dries from panting in pleasure

And she can’t wait to drink you in,

And feel hydrated again….and again…and again.

When she says you’re her addiction,

She means to say the high wears off.

Just as she craves the needle against her skin

She will yearn for your touch.

She will ache for your rubber band arms,

And beg for your needle fingers.

She will drop to her knees.

For a taste of your poisoned kisses

And when she’s had her high,

No matter how great,

She will always want more.

If an addict tells you that you are their addiction,

Don’t say, “Thank you.”

It’s not a compliment. When she says she misses you, she means she’s itching for her next high.

When she says she loves you,

She means she loves only the way you make her feel,

And only during the high, never after.

When she says she wants you,

She means it’s time to delve into the façade she created, which she calls “happiness.”

And when she says she needs you,

She means it.

So, when an addict calls you their addiction,

Don’t say thank you.

Know that the first step to recovery is admitting you have a problem.

She isn’t complimenting you.

She’s asking for help.